uuruaaagaggghhhh

exams

I'm torn on next year. what to do, what to do.

Morgan says:
I know for a fact they still fuck on the rag
morgen says:
...great.
suuper duuper
Morgan says:
that one was meant especially for you
morgen says:
thanks pal.
Morgan says:
np
so
that's THAT


MSN conversation dated Today; April 15, 2009

PONCH FREE IN 20032009

ok the past while I've been baking 24/7 so that's resulted in a massive increase in food intake and thus an increase in ponch. Oh my! I've seriously packed on the ponchage in the past while. It's also resulted in a creative outburst which has been really great.

this is pointless because I'm not doing anything about it until exams are over. siiiiigh

I was meant to live in 1976.

Man so much has changed in the past little while. It's like a noticeable shift in my consciousness has taken place. I like it. I also like this.

ok I should start channeling all this inspiration into a project, no?

myst

significant dreams
significant thinking
significant actions
significant feelings
significant responses

uuuugh I want to make collections that convey these moods

clothes are so much of me

mood 3

clouded glass dome
rusted metal frame
blue diffused light
down cushions and blankets
thick feather bed
silk pajamas
baby blue, soft purple, and ivory
bedtime stories
soft silky hair
pale skin
pink cheeks
wonder

mood 2

endless highway
disappearing horizon
dry desert air
sparse grass
sunglasses
sweat
mustang with no air conditioning
warm cola in a paper cup
audio tapes
long hair
bare feet
day dreams

mood 1

leather jackets
summer nights when the sun has just set
cigarettes
seven elevens
faded concert t-shirts
half drunk mickeys of cheap strong alcohol
dark purple, dust pink and black
pony boy
crickets chirping
high school baseball fields
double bubble
pay phones
tanned skin
1976
smoke
dusk

people

erin wasson
freja beha
diane von furstenberg
missy peregrym
natalie portman
hayden christensen
robert pattinson
shia labeouf
kristen stewart
adriana lima
whitney port

movies

good will hunting
spirited away
the wackness
nick and noras infinite playlist
dazed and confused
labrynth
all harry potter movies
all the LOTR movies
igby goes down
dangerous lives of alter boys
life as a house
strike!
the notebook
skins seasons 1&2
10 things I hate about you
ferris bueller's day off

for so long I've wanted to be internet famous, but now I realize it's immaterial. Obviously, my output into this blog (for instance) is an array of stumbling words I hope make some sense to an outsider, but really what makes a blog (or whatever) interesting? Content. People like pictures. Pictures of things. People like people who make things.

I don't want to be a perpetual re-poster, so all I spew is words because of.. well, lazyness.

Let's do a mini-evaluation shall we?

Me. Now:

• too fat
  
• too unfocused
  
• too unmotivated
  

Me. The future:

• in shape
  
• focused
  
• motivated
  

I actually feel like I'm accomplishing 2 & 3, buuuut am still a little lax on 1. Basically, I need to excersize and stop eating crap (she says as casually sipping a beer on the couch).

I wish I was more... pushed. Not motivated (I'm working on that and it's coming) but actually felt PUSHED by some outside source to do it. I work better with pushing.

I should learn to push myself