It's my birthday
and I have pneumonia.
I've been sick for abooout 12 days, which was why I stopped doing the cleanse after only completing 5 days. It was not helping me build my immune system.
and now I have pneumonia. on my birthday. not fair :(
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
day 4; optimism
Although I'm not at the point where I feel great (sickness is still reeking havoc on my body) I am feeling improved from yesterday. And an improvement is always an improvement, right?
right.
Notes:
eat moAr, silly girl
throat sore but muscles greatly improved. My biceps actually feel functional again.
don't feel much skinnier... but I guess it's been only 4 days. Boo.
oh ya and it was the first day of class for this semester. It's weird how I'm actually looking forward to this year quite a bit. Weird meaning good.
most incoherent post ever. Where has my literary genius gone?
right.
Notes:
eat moAr, silly girl
throat sore but muscles greatly improved. My biceps actually feel functional again.
don't feel much skinnier... but I guess it's been only 4 days. Boo.
oh ya and it was the first day of class for this semester. It's weird how I'm actually looking forward to this year quite a bit. Weird meaning good.
most incoherent post ever. Where has my literary genius gone?
Sunday, January 4, 2009
check in before bed
THIS IS THE POINT WHERE I REGRET STARTING THIS! HOOOOLY SHIT I FEEL LIKE ASS WRAPPED IN CELLOPHANE WHICH HAS BEEN LEFT OUT ON A BLISTERING HOT SATURDAY AFTERNOON!
NOOOOT GOOD!
even my organs are protesting.
the thing is
everytime I say aloud this is not good, a little voice continues to tell me it really is good.
Great. Thanks.
I guess I'll persevere.
NOOOOT GOOD!
even my organs are protesting.
the thing is
everytime I say aloud this is not good, a little voice continues to tell me it really is good.
Great. Thanks.
I guess I'll persevere.
detox; day 3
BLAAAAARRRRRG
I feel sick and I'm unsure if it's because of the cleanse or an actual sickness. Thing is, I felt somewhat sniffly and cold-ish before I even started so I think it's a combination.
Thoughts on the d-tox:
1) oh my god I want creamy delicious substances. Yesterday I craved dough. Today I crave dairy. All the time I crave sugar.
2) After eating healthy for two days my skin is acting up. This doesn't surprise me as I've had issues surrounding dry skin and weird rashy things popping up from time to time, and the box said that skin conditions may worsen at first before getting better. It's nothing bad or even terribly noticable, just a nuisance.
3) My body aches. The kind where my muscles feel like they belong to an 80 year old.
4) Mentally speaking, I'm doubting the effectiveness of this program just by how shittttttty I feel right now. I've read all the reviews saying that this initial crap fest will pass but UGH! pass now. And I have class tomorrow.
Maybe class will be good for me. Get me out there, doing something. I have to make food now to bring to school. I guess I could eat sushi... well... not really. They put sugar in sushi rice (delicious delicious sushi rice) so that's a no-no. I do really want some raw tuna though. Mmmm sashimi.
Seriously though. My biceps are like crazy sore from carrying groceries home yesterday. What??!? I used to be an elite athlete thank you very much! Now this? I attribute it to the cleanse. My mom (the beakon of all reasoning) said that all my muscles are probably inflamed and I should take ibuprofen but we have none in the house.
to sum everything up: BLLLLARRRGGG
I feel sick and I'm unsure if it's because of the cleanse or an actual sickness. Thing is, I felt somewhat sniffly and cold-ish before I even started so I think it's a combination.
Thoughts on the d-tox:
1) oh my god I want creamy delicious substances. Yesterday I craved dough. Today I crave dairy. All the time I crave sugar.
2) After eating healthy for two days my skin is acting up. This doesn't surprise me as I've had issues surrounding dry skin and weird rashy things popping up from time to time, and the box said that skin conditions may worsen at first before getting better. It's nothing bad or even terribly noticable, just a nuisance.
3) My body aches. The kind where my muscles feel like they belong to an 80 year old.
4) Mentally speaking, I'm doubting the effectiveness of this program just by how shittttttty I feel right now. I've read all the reviews saying that this initial crap fest will pass but UGH! pass now. And I have class tomorrow.
Maybe class will be good for me. Get me out there, doing something. I have to make food now to bring to school. I guess I could eat sushi... well... not really. They put sugar in sushi rice (delicious delicious sushi rice) so that's a no-no. I do really want some raw tuna though. Mmmm sashimi.
Seriously though. My biceps are like crazy sore from carrying groceries home yesterday. What??!? I used to be an elite athlete thank you very much! Now this? I attribute it to the cleanse. My mom (the beakon of all reasoning) said that all my muscles are probably inflamed and I should take ibuprofen but we have none in the house.
to sum everything up: BLLLLARRRGGG
Friday, January 2, 2009
detox; day 1
I successfully completed day one of the wild rose herbal d-tox without any major issues. I've read reviews where many people get violently ill during the first few days but I only feel the remnants of a cold I picked up from a friend still lingering in my body. Well, that and some minor body aches attributed to both drinking and lifting heavy objects. Silly me.
I'm actually slightly disappointed with the lack of result thus far. I was expecting to feel more of an obvious change in my body but perhaps that will occur over the next few days, or perhaps not. I guess I'll just have to wait it out and see.
So far, all I feel is slightly hungry and want all the delicious and terrible foods I won't be eating the next while. Things like... well a doughy, yeasty, sugary treat would be good.
Oh dear, I'm totally dependent on that type of food.
Not for loooong
I'm actually slightly disappointed with the lack of result thus far. I was expecting to feel more of an obvious change in my body but perhaps that will occur over the next few days, or perhaps not. I guess I'll just have to wait it out and see.
So far, all I feel is slightly hungry and want all the delicious and terrible foods I won't be eating the next while. Things like... well a doughy, yeasty, sugary treat would be good.
Oh dear, I'm totally dependent on that type of food.
Not for loooong
Thursday, January 1, 2009
just a thought
ok ok ok I know this is an overload of posts in one day...
... but since when are 16 year olds so innovative?
... but since when are 16 year olds so innovative?
Resolutions
- spend more time off the computer
*every time I want to go on facebook or the computer for fruitless reasons I resolve to make a piece of art instead
- make more art
*see above
- excersize more
*have a set time for excersize 7 days of the week and then make it to 5 or better yet 6 of those appointed times
- love more
*I feel like I love a lot already, but there is never too much love. Wherever you can make the room, love more.
- take better care of myself
*Get your haircut when you need to. Cut your toenails and paint them. Take it off when it's chipped. Small things like that.
- become more accountable to myself
*Do everything I tell myself I'm going to do
- make my commitments more important than my commitments to other people
*Make my commitments the number one priority in the list of things I say I'm going to do
- excersize more
*ya seriously. everything else should just fall into place
- do better in school
*Study, DO ASSIGNMENTS! Go to every class!
- be happier
*byproduct of all these excellent resolutions
- go to the doctor and dentist when I need to
- follow (FOLLOW IT) an organized and dope schedule
*make a dope schedule, then understand the necessity of it being a priority (!!) as a commitment
- run, run, run
*sign up for a mini marathon way in advance and then train train train
*every time I want to go on facebook or the computer for fruitless reasons I resolve to make a piece of art instead
- make more art
*see above
- excersize more
*have a set time for excersize 7 days of the week and then make it to 5 or better yet 6 of those appointed times
- love more
*I feel like I love a lot already, but there is never too much love. Wherever you can make the room, love more.
- take better care of myself
*Get your haircut when you need to. Cut your toenails and paint them. Take it off when it's chipped. Small things like that.
- become more accountable to myself
*Do everything I tell myself I'm going to do
- make my commitments more important than my commitments to other people
*Make my commitments the number one priority in the list of things I say I'm going to do
- excersize more
*ya seriously. everything else should just fall into place
- do better in school
*Study, DO ASSIGNMENTS! Go to every class!
- be happier
*byproduct of all these excellent resolutions
- go to the doctor and dentist when I need to
- follow (FOLLOW IT) an organized and dope schedule
*make a dope schedule, then understand the necessity of it being a priority (!!) as a commitment
- run, run, run
*sign up for a mini marathon way in advance and then train train train
Happy New Year
So this is it, right? The time I've been hyping up to start the transformation into the heightened being I aim to be?
Ya, I guess it is!
Here's the steps I've taken thus fur to secure my 'best year ever':
1) ran in the new year with friends I adore and unstoppable dance beats
2) bought the wild rose herbal d-tox kit/plan which I will start tomorrow*
*to elaborate... it's basically a pretty intense 12 day d-tox where you eliminate sugar, flour, and yeast from your diet along with taking these herbal supplements meant to rid your body of toxins and built up shit. Just the program in a nutshell. I think I'll be feeling pretty sick for a few days and am looking forward to it whole hartedly. Actually!
3) Wrote an extensive resolution list (will post later)
4) Am in the process of cleaning my place from head to toe, more or less.
Also, I realized how utterly miserable I feel after a night of drinking and dancing. They do not go hand in hand as I seem to think they do every time I drink. This morning I woke up with the stiffest neck possible (which still hasn't recovered) and a sore throat. Walking around in the snow looking for a cab in only a dress, sparkly tights and flats didn't help either, I'm sure.
aaaaah so this year I'm going to poison my body less and strengthen my body more.
goals and action plans to follow.
Ya, I guess it is!
Here's the steps I've taken thus fur to secure my 'best year ever':
1) ran in the new year with friends I adore and unstoppable dance beats
2) bought the wild rose herbal d-tox kit/plan which I will start tomorrow*
*to elaborate... it's basically a pretty intense 12 day d-tox where you eliminate sugar, flour, and yeast from your diet along with taking these herbal supplements meant to rid your body of toxins and built up shit. Just the program in a nutshell. I think I'll be feeling pretty sick for a few days and am looking forward to it whole hartedly. Actually!
3) Wrote an extensive resolution list (will post later)
4) Am in the process of cleaning my place from head to toe, more or less.
Also, I realized how utterly miserable I feel after a night of drinking and dancing. They do not go hand in hand as I seem to think they do every time I drink. This morning I woke up with the stiffest neck possible (which still hasn't recovered) and a sore throat. Walking around in the snow looking for a cab in only a dress, sparkly tights and flats didn't help either, I'm sure.
aaaaah so this year I'm going to poison my body less and strengthen my body more.
goals and action plans to follow.
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