pessimism

my sunny disposision has pretty much melted. I miss my friends like crazy and right now I'm a little on the depressed side. I have been basically alone the past week and it's suuuch a bummer. I'm trying to find a job but it's not really going so great- the offer's I've recieved are not what I want to be doing and, well, I also don't want to really put myself out there when I feel so crappy.

I woke up completely dehydrated and I think I possibly have heat stroke. My mom's apartment has no air conditioning and the temperature in here was abouuut 35 degrees yesterday. Way to hot for the BC coast. For so long I was craving the sun, so it came with a vengance and now I'm praying for some clouds. Rain even! Snow! Anything other than weather too hot to function properly. I believe that spring and fall are my ideal seasons.

Other than all this, I'm changing my eating habits and being healthy healthy. My mom signed up for this semi extremem diet in which you don't eat dough (big surprise) and have some serious limits on the amount of fat and even protien you eat. It's all weighed out and has to be 5 hours apart. Needless to say I'm not enjoying it, although I have lost about 4 lbs in 3 days. I've been torturing myself with cooking shows because I have nothing else to do. I am SO BORED and it's completly draining my optimism.

If anyone has healthy but seriously delicious recipies PLEASE share them- I am dying here.